She stepped through the church doors this morning for the first time in a long time. I was on my way out and saw her pass by.
She smiled and gave me a big hug. She seemed to hold on a little tighter than usual. Perhaps it was because it had been a while since we’d seen each other.
Her hair was fixed beautifully, and her smile seemed to be glowing.
“How are you?” I asked.
“Good,” she said with a smile. “How are you?”
“I’m great! It’s good to see you.”
Off to church she went and off to my car I went.
Six hours later I got the call. She ended her life, just like that.
Suicide. A word that keeps ringing in my ears.
Just like that life changed. Just like that another addiction battle lost. Just like that, I found 10,000 things to be grateful for.
Today I cry out, “Thank You, Jesus!” That could’ve been me.
I stood on the tipping point once, right where my friend was. I wanted to die. Freedom was too hard to find and I couldn’t fight the battle anymore.
That could’ve been me.
Those words play over and over in my head. That could’ve been me.
Hold your family tighter today. Don’t look at someone’s smile and just assume everything is ok. Hug strangers. Smile at the clerk behind the checkout counter. Thank God that where you are today is not where you used to be.
Cling to Jesus and never let go.
Speachless post! 🙁
Praying for your friend, her family and for you now Sundi. God bless.
So sorry to hear that Sundi Jo. Praying for you.
Oh, Sundi Jo. Thinking of you and her family.
I am incredibly sorry Sundi Jo. NO WORDS can comfort you. Praying the Holy Spirit engulfs you and her family with grace and mercy, and that her too-short life ended in the arm of Jesus, where He has already wiped away her tears.
So so sorry to hear this. Praying for you and your friend’s family too.
I saw a post on another friend’s Facebook page and wondered if you might have known her. May the Lord comfort you and give you His peace during this painful time.
How sad. I am sorry for your loss, her family’s loss, and the world’s loss from her absence. You are so right when you say, “Don’t look at someone’s smile and just assume everything is ok.” I lost my step-dad to suicide ten years ago, he smiled too just before. First the shock, and then the, “why didn’t I see it coming? What could I have done? I should have this, and I should have that.” I feel your pain today and pray for God’s comfort to you and your friend’s family. Most especially, that you will feel Him clinging back to you.
Truly sorry to read this.
Praying for you Sundi. That could have been me.
IT could have been… but it wasnt. we have to go on..
Praying for you and your friend’s family.
So heartbreaking. You are right, it’s those moments when we are reminded of God’s grace and how much he has done in our lives.