January brings the time of New Year’s Resolutions. For many, that resolution is to lose weight. You’re excited! You’re going to do it this time! 10 lbs. 20 lbs. 50 lbs.
You’re envisioning a new wardrobe, or maybe you’re excited to see what it’s like not to have to order a seatbelt extension on the plane. Then January rolls around and so many have given up until next year.
Here we are in September and 2014 is more than halfway over, but what if you didn’t wait until January to start setting goals? What if you could make a change today? In this moment. Right now.
Have you recently used food as a way to protect yourself? Did it leave you feeling regret only moments after? You’re not alone, my friend.
I’ve been in the middle of some heavy, emotional things happening in my family right now. Because food is an easy go-to for me in difficult times, I’m on high alert of my actions.
On a particularly rough day this past weekend, I decided I wanted some Chinese food – a buffet. I was hungry and it was lunch time. Before I headed to the restaurant, I texted a friend to let her know I was considering Chinese. When I pulled into the parking lot, she texted me back with some great word of wisdom:
No buffet today, ok? Don’t emotionally eat.
Boom! She called me on it before I even realized I was about to emotionally eat. I had two choices in that moment. I could eat my way through sadness at the buffet, or I could make a healthier choice, which wouldn’t leave me with regret later.
Depression sucks. Suicide, even worse. Just typing the words stirs a sadness in my heart that makes me want to write about anything but this.
Throughout the last week, I’ve listened to many discussions and read several social media posts and blogs about the tragedy of Robin Williams’ death. But I haven’t said much. I simply haven’t had much to say.
The news took me back to the day the world lost another comedic genius, Chris Farley. I sat in my high school art class and grieved his loss with my classmate, Robbie.
Today, I mourn again. I don’t know why a man who could bring tears of laughter to your eyes in seconds, decided to take his life. What I do know, however, is I can relate to the desire to want to do the same.
In today’s culture we’re taught to have our own opinions, and voice them consistently. We have a “right” to tell others what we think, and often we end up being more close-minded because of it.
I admit I struggle not sharing my opinion with the world, but I’m much better than I used to be. Turns out the world still goes around when it doesn’t hear what I think about everything.
Unfortunately, we seem to be more of an entitled generation than ever before, and because of that, many of us don’t live with an open mind.
I am excited to be speaking at Higher Ground Experience #66 in Eureka Springs, AR. Though this event is full, you can sign up for the next one.
||October 9, 2014
||Higher Ground Experience #66
Little Portion Retreat Center
||Eureka Springs, AR
||Click here for more information.
I am looking forward to being a guest speaker at Morningside Church in Blue Eye, MO. I’ll be teaching on the topic of Simple Obedience prior to the main church service.
Hope too see you there!
||August 10, 2014
||The Power of Simple Obedience
||180 Grace Chapel Road
Blue Eye 65611
||Click here for more information.
Isn’t it amazing that we can all see the same thing, yet see something differently at the same time? That’s exactly what happened to me a few weeks ago.
I was touring through the Celebrity Car Museum in Branson with my little cousin, Caleb. There was the Batmobile, a motorcyle driven by Elvis, and of course, the 1976 Pacer driven by Wayne and Garth in Wayne’s World.
We turned the corner and there sat the black limousine Jackie Kennedy and her children rode in the day of John F. Kennedy’s funeral. I read the placard, then walked on.
Have you ever taken a few minutes to just stop and think about where you are today compared to where you used to be? I bet you’d be pleasantly surprised.
I think about my life today and the life I was living 10 years ago, even 5 years ago. Oh how things change.
Self-doubt seems to be an ongoing plague in the world. It’s the invisible disease that’s eating away at the hearts and minds of women and men everywhere, yet it so often goes untreated.
It breaks my heart, really. I know if it breaks mine, it has to break God’s.
I hear my friends and family putting themselves down with negative words on a daily basis. I used to be the queen of it. Though I’m not perfect and still catch myself using negative self-talk, I’m so much better than I used to be.
I’m the type of person who can do the same thing over and over again. I can eat a salad everyday for lunch with the exact same toppings for months.
I’m one for routine. I drink my tea at the same time every morning. I prefer a specific type of ink pen. Sometimes, however, it’s time to change things up.
I’ve kept it no secret that I’ve gained 40 lbs. back of the 145 I lost. It’s still hard to say (type) those words. Lately I’ve felt stuck. I’m still running, still eating salads, and still drinking my tea at the same time each morning. But I’ve just felt stuck.